This
is the last blog I will send from Cambodia. I have so much more to
report but that will come on my two day journey home. I am thankful for
the long layovers because it provides time for me to process all that I
have seen.
Back in January, I remember praying a prayer about seeing. I think
from a purely personal standpoint with God it was a prayer sent with as
much heart felt intensity as any I have prayed. "God, please let me
see! Let me see what you see." I have to be honest, at the time I was
hoping to see angels and heavenly visions like the accounts I have heard
from others. I really believed it would help me to more effectively
minister to others if I had deeper insight into the heavenly realms
where angels abide. I still believe that to be true but God had
something quite different to show me. He showed me his heart for the
children. I never expected to see their pain as vividly as I have seen
it. I never expected to feel it so deeply when I saw it. I knew that
it would break my heart for sure to see the suffering of these kids, but
God opened up my eyes in such a way that I physically ached for them.
I had to say goodbye to them. They knew I was only here for a few
weeks so they were prepared. But I was not. The last time I saw them,
they were driving away in a van back to the border. Back to their
parents or whoever the adults are that they live with. Some sleep in
the streets so they were on their way back to nobody. The window of the
van was open and we were saying goodbye. They were hugging and
holding on and I was telling them to be strong, to take care of each
other and no matter what to always remember that God loves them and
there is hope.
As I watched them drive away, all I could think of is that it takes
so much more faith to leave them than it ever did to come. I must
trust God for their care. I don't know what else my heart can do. I
know that God can do anything and I can already see in the life of
Esther how quickly that can happen. I know that God sees the pain of
these kids because he has shown me what he sees. I know that God is
moving here because the world is beginning to see.
This is the kingdom of Heaven...to see who God sees, stop when he shows
them to you, and do what He tells you to do. There are hurting people
right in front of us all day. They live in their cars. They are being
beaten. They are sick. They are suffering. Ask God for eyes that see
today.
Love from the road.
Julie
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